As only those close to me may know, rarely do I ever find myself opening up to others or becoming overemotional in situations where I probably should be. Growing up, I always found myself becoming better friends with boys, or simple minded girls that didn't care for the drama. In high school I maintained the same three friends, friends that I still hold close to this day for a reason. In college, I was very skeptical about who I wanted to let into my life as I had grown so close to Morgan and Nina.
As a teenager, young adult and even into your 20s, you grow to learn what you look for in a friend. Sadly, it takes many failed attempts and broken hearts to realize who these people are. I've learned to not regret past friendships that haven't worked out but rather view them as experiences that have shaped me to find the people that fit. One thing I pride myself on is I have found myself some amazing people to stand by me in the good times and bad. At the end of the day, men don't always stick around but your best friends will. I don't need twenty of them, I am perfectly content with five or six that I know would take a bullet for me or cover up a murder if needed.
There are no words in this universe to describe the gratitude and insurmountable love I have for Mariah, Leah and Nicole. Not to leave anyone out, but this semester specifically I owe everything to these women. Junior year of college is the defining year for many- stressful, testing and a time where you are truly settling into what you will be doing with your life. Now add family complications, boy drama, work and other factors to the mix. I have no idea what I would have done without stable and sound people by my side, and I can only try to say thank you.
Mariah, thank you for being my nursing soul sister and for always understanding me when it comes to school. Many can try to relate, but you truly get what goes through my mind when I think about the nursing program and our future. I admire how strong and confident you present yourself, even when you have your own internal battles to deal with. I love how unspoken and honest you are to others, yet always willing to sit and listen to everyones problems with an open ear. Thank you for always understanding the "mom" in me, and for feeling the same amount of passion for J.Cole as I do.
Leah, thank you for being the most positive shining light I have ever met. No matter the horrid situation, you seem to always have a sarcastic joke to tell to pull everyone into reality and into fits of laughter. I love how when you commit to something you commit to it in its entirety. You never hold grudges and always see the best in people, even when they are undeserving. Thank you for being the only person I've ever lived with who hasn't driven me batshit crazy. I love you and I thank the universe every single day for bringing you into my life because I don't know what I would do without you.
Nicole, thank you for being the strongest woman and the weirdest goofball. You have experienced so much pain and loss in the past few months, yet you carry yourself so beautifully and always with a smile. I look up to you in ways you will never begin to understand. You always make light of every situation and turn any normal moment into a weird and silly one. You eat ranch with almost every single food group and eat jimmy Johns for breakfast, lunch and dinner yet weigh 100 pounds, but I love you anyway. Thank you for being my forever rave buddy and biggest supporter.
If I've learned anything in the past few years, it's that it is okay to let go of some friendships. At this point in life no one should beat around the bush, but put effort and energy into the individuals that reciprocate that same energy. It isn't rude, but it is selfish. And this is the time to be selfish and figure out which people are going to pull you up when your ready to call it quits, and get you to where you want to go. And maybe they will make you cry from laughing too hard on the way.
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