This past fall season has truly been a season of self reflection. As the fall draws to a close and so does 2018, I've been thinking a lot about the past year of my life. I decided to take day to myself, to collect my thoughts after a difficult week at school. I got in my car, put on my comfiest autumn poncho, and drove to my secret spot near campus where I can walk the trails and breathe in fresh air. I was able to capture so many pictures of the beautiful nature and changing colors of the trees.
I arrived at my favorite wooden bench, and sat by myself for a few hours.
In the past eleven months, I realized such a change in my mental health. When I left for college, it was definitely at an all time low. Several contributing factors made matters worse until I eventually took my life and mental health into my own hands and recognized it was time for a change. Over the summer, I put myself first. I worked at a job that I thoroughly enjoyed, made time for those who mattered to me, and made decisions in regard to my own happiness and benefit. Returning back to school, I made several large changes to my life to keep the positive trend going. I removed myself from the things that weren't contributing positivity to my life, and spent more time focusing on the things that did. I saw such a distinct difference in my self confidence, self worth, and past experiences with generalized anxiety.
I am so proud of myself for realizing these things at such a crucial period in my life, and thankful for the many friends and family around me that only contribute to this enlightenment even further. I know that even through the educational obstacles, financial struggles of college and the people that may try to pull at this confidence, that I will get through it with a strong mind and heart.
Special thank you to my mom and dad for always reminding me these things, even when I struggle to remind myself on my own.
Stay reflective.
Comments