"The temptation to quit will be the greatest just before you are about to succeed". This quote really hit me differently when thinking about my application to the nursing program this fall, my third time might I add.
After the first application process and receiving a denial, I told myself that it wasn't anything that had to do with my level of intelligence but the amount of overqualified applicants (400 with 60 seats...). After a second denial, I made the adult move to apply to nursing programs at other universities such as Davenport and University of Michigan. I will admit that after two denials to a program I have admired since a freshman in high school, I was very pessimistic and ready to give up entirely. I spent weeks visiting my favorite park bench going over my options- do I transfer to another school? Away from all of my friends and a place I have grown to find comfort and love for. Or do I change my major? From something that I have felt in my heart for as long as I can remember, compromising my integrity.
I remember the moment vividly sitting at a dive bar restaurant with my dad, him pestering me about what time I would recieve the email from GVSU regarding my third application. I was 100% convinced I was not going to get in, especially after the first two tries. I neglected to open the email even when I knew it was sitting right there in my inbox.
As I opened the email ready for the same automated reason as to why I could not be offered admission, the corner of my eye caught the words "congratulations". Tears unwilling poured down my face in a restaurant full of people (who I'm sure were convinced I was losing it) and I looked up to find my dad and biggest supporter crying too.
I think back to the quote mentioned above. It's very easy to find yourself with the 'glass half empty' mindset when you are pushed down several times, but a part of growth is reminding yourself to get up. Make a plan B. And when plan B fails, make plan C, D and E. I know that the pressures, complexities and demands of the nursing program will be heavy and a test to my perseverance and mindset. But I also know that the past two years of hard work and extreme desire to be a part of such an incredible program will be the exact motivating factors to achieving a BSN. There's so much to look forward to and I'm more than excited.
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